Lyrics
Released in March of 2024, the song "Anymore" was influenced by a Disney's A Goofy Movie music. Which in my opinion is the best Disney movie and you can fight me on that one! The song "Eye To Eye" by the fictional artist "Powerline" was a banger to say the least. I started writing "Anymore" back in December of 2021. When I first played the main synth line and it immediately reminded me of the movie. The verse and chorus instrumental came together in one night and pretty much 80% of the music was written. A few days later, I threw together the majority of the lyrics complimented by adlibs and random harmonies. The song came together beautifully, but one year past, then another, and the song was just became a demo that I struggled to finish. Saddened by yet another break up (fml), I finished the few lyrics that were missing, mixed, mastered, and just got this song done. I didn't overthink it too much and just decided to release it as is. I hope you all enjoy it!
I know there's not a single word I could say
To make you not feel this way
Thought I'd check in to see for sure
So it's true you don't love me anymore
Trying to make some changes about myself
Just like everyone else
Tired of living in my own personal hell
Trapped in my own shell
I'm done with thinking you want me
Pretending it's meant to be
Round and round again
I've reacted the same scene, but I still can't help to see
If the feelings are gone
I know there's not a single word I could say
To make you not feel this way
Thought I'd check in to see for sure
So it's true you don't love me anymore
Thought I'd let you know, I've just gotta let you go
Ignore your feelings, I know it's not very rational
I know it's hard and the truth hurts
But it's true you don't love me anymore
Don't love me anymore (x2)
Kinda hate myself for believe the lies
Can't say I didn't try
Thinking back to the days when we were young
I know I was so dumb
So I'm done with thinking you want me
Pretending it's meant to be
Round and round again
I've reacted the same scene, but I still can't help to see
If the feelings are gone
I know there's not a single word I could say
To make you not feel this way
Thought I'd check in to see for sure
So it's true you don't love me anymore
Thought I'd let you know, I've just gotta let you go
Ignore your feelings, I know it's not very rational
I know it's hard and the truth hurts
But it's true you don't love me anymore
Don't love me anymore (x2)
Repeats Pre-Chorus and Chorus
Released in January of 2023, the song "Waiting For Your Love" was influenced by electronic artists such as Lenno and Oliver. I wanted a faster tempo vibe with a disco beat. I immediately put together the verse with a funky guitar, a groovy bass, and a 90's house style piano. While I was writing this song, someone from my past reached out to me to apologize for never giving us a real shot. Flustered, I want to say that I was sick of "waiting for your love" over the years. Instead, I internalized, and put it in a song. Healthy right? My favorite lyric from the song is "my heart has taken beatings". I was thinking about how I've been hurt over the years with this off and on relationship, but here I am, heart is still beating and taking beatings. To wrap up this song, I wanted to attempt to create a saxophone sound similar to song "Jason" by "The Midnight". It was tough to produce, but I threw it in over the post chorus. The "Sax" was decent, therefore the song was complete. Hope y'all enjoy.
Waiting for your love (x2)
Such a shame that you put me on the sideline
Fucked around and made me waste all my time
Been there done that, don't wanna do this again
Play pretend, I know that we'll just end up friends, so if you
Try and tell me now
All it's gonna do is bring me down
So sick of, waiting for your love
I told you I'll be here and that's no lie
Waiting for your love
Try to communicate it, I feel so dumb
And now the room is spinning, I don't think you're getting it
My heart has taken beatings, I feel so numb
And now your puppet strings are wearing thin
Waiting for your love (x2)
Fooled around too many times in our past lives
Taken vows with someone else, cutting all your ties
Sit at bars waiting for someone to take me home
Maybe I'm better with no one forever being alone, it's true
Try and tell me now
All it's gonna do is bring me down
So sick of, waiting for your love
I told you I'll be here and that's no lie
Waiting for your love
Try to communicate, it I feel so dumb
And now the room is spinning, I don't think you're getting it
My heart has taken beatings, I feel so numb
And now your puppet strings are wearing thin
Waiting for your love (x2)
I'm waiting, waiting for your love...
Released in September of 2022, the song "From The Start" began by experimenting with this really bouncy synth that I fell in love with. From that 3 second sound, I wrote an entire song around it. Everything started falling into place including the lyrics. I was scrolling thru Facebook that night and saw someone I used to be close with venting about their recent relationship ending. They were upset about how it was all a lie and that ultimately, the person didn't care about them from the start. I could relate to the pain they were going through from some of my prior relationships and how mad and betrayed I felt now that it was over. My favorite part of the lyrics was about leaving the picture on the wall. It made me think of how we torture ourselves with hope and nostalgia.
I'm out of patience, sick of staring at my phone (x2)
What a surprise, I fell for the lies
I guess I didn't see this one coming for me
It's hard to forget, the things that we did
I'm closing my eyes cause I'm sick of staring
Sick of staring at your picture on the wall
I thought of taking it down
I know you wouldn't care at all
Pity party for me, we'll see
In a room lonely, lots of time and whiskey
Hey, no wonder why I'm falling apart
I had a feeling you didn't really care from the start
It's not okay that you just left me here in the dark
You didn't really care from the start, from the start
Can't keep waiting all alone,
can't keep waiting all alone by the phone
I'm out of patience, sick of staring at my phone
I know we said our goodbyes and took some time to realize
that it wasn't worth holding onto everything that we had,
everything that we did, now I'm so fucking sick of staring...
Still mad staring at the picture on the wall
I sat around at home just hoping you would call
No sleep for me, lately, in a car driving fucking aimlessly
So hey, no wonder why I'm falling apart
I had a feeling you didn't really care from the start
It's not okay that you just left me here in the dark
You didn't really care from the start, from the start
Can't keep waiting all alone,
can't keep waiting all alone by the phone
You didn't really care from the start
I'm out of patience, sick of staring at my phone
Released in June of 2022, the song Over You was started with a single vocal loop I recorded. I started putting different effects on the track, then a beat, then a chord progression, and it all just fell into place. It was fun to chop up the vocal and make a variety of sounds. I wanted to keep the lyrics very simple so the focus would be on the vocal chops and production. The outro is my favorite part. It's so mellow, big, and emotional. The title of the song "Over You" is deceiving since the lyrics are "crying over you" .
I don't know why I keep crying over you (x2)
I know these feelings are dumb
I know it's over and done
I know you found someone and you're happy
Those nights we laid in your bed, can't get that out of my head
I remember every word you said
But I don't know why, I keep crying over you
But I don't know why, I keep crying over you
But I don't know why, I keep crying over you
But I don't know why, I keep crying over you
I know these feelings are dumb
I know it's over and done
I know you found someone and you're happy
Those nights we laid in your bed, can't get that out of my head
I remember every word you said
But I don't know why, I keep crying over you
But I don't know why, I keep crying over you
But I don't know why, I keep crying over you
But I don't know why, I keep crying over you
I know these feelings are dumb
I know it's over and done
I know you found someone and you're happy
Those nights we laid in your bed, can't get that out of my head
I remember every word you said
I don't know why I keep crying over you (x4)
Released in May of 2022, the song Running Away was the first song I wrote and sang lyrics on. The song was written during a time where I felt like everything was going wrong. I wanted to just pack up my shit, leave everything, and start fresh. Those feelings were so conflicted with leaving what I still had in my life. I questioned why I was "Running Away" and began to mentally argue with myself. After everything settled in my head, I started writing the music and the lyrics just came naturally. It was a very emotional process but felt so good to get those feelings out on paper and in a song I enjoy. Thanks for listening!
Sunrise, sunset, I know either way I'm gonna get in my head
Just need to get out of bed and think of ways to make some changes, put my furniture in different places, rearrange my expectations, but I still feel lost
All I know is something's gotta give now, before I get depressed, I don't wanna be a mess
Constant pressure daily someone please come and save me, I care for myself so I've decided
In four days I'll be packin my things, I am, over it I never wanna do this again
Letting go of promises, can't keep every one I give, just running away from everything
Why are you running away (why are you running away), why are you running away
Why are you running away (why are you running away), why are you running away (I don't know)
Next day I lay in my bed, forget the things I had said, it's hard to be true to myself so I just pick up the phone and
Scroll through all my different phases, miss my friend's and family's faces, dream of goin bigger places, but I still forget who I am
All I know is something's gotta give now, before I get depressed, I don't wanna be a mess
Constant pressure daily someone please come and save me, I care for myself so I've decided
In four days I'll be packin my things, I am, over it I never wanna do this again
Letting go of promises, can't keep every one I give, just running away from everything
Why are you running away (why are you running away), why are you running away
Why are you running away (why are you running away), why are you running away (I don't know)
Something's gotta give now, before I get depressed, I don't wanna be a mess
In four days I'll be packin my things, I am, over it I never wanna do this again
Letting go of promises, can't keep every one I give, just running away from everything
Why are you running away (why are you running away), why are you running away
Why are you running away (why are you running away), why are you running away (I don't know)
Something's gotta give now, before I get depressed, I don't wanna be a mess